Who am I?

I'm sitting at Starbucks trying to grasp the American History before I am quizzed on it later tonight. As I sit here and try to understand I start to think about my history. My life. I wonder who am I? Who do I want to be? That's what I'm left with. Thinking about who I want to be. I have great thoughts about what I wish to be but that's all they are. great thoughts. What do I do next though?

You know those people in your life who say things to you and they put you at a stand still? They say those things that just hit you hard enough to get the wind knoked out of you? Well I've talked to a few of them this week. Or better yet they talked AT me. It shook me up a bit. People whom I respected yet with there comments I have lost respect. This is what I've concluded as a lesson in my life: When speaking to someone, even if you are trying to help them by pointing out what they are doing wrong, don't do it in a mean way. Do it in a loving way. It's not that hard. What you say does affect people. This is a lesson I am learning and I hope that I have not said things to people that give them that feeling that I am having now. And if I have I am truly sorry.

Back to where I started, I think about these people in my life I think about them as part of my history. Part of the great story which I like to call, "The Life of Cheryl Kay Krake." I think about the things I have done and the choices I have made. Many of them not being the rights things while others seem to have been the right things to do. I will never make all the right moves, I'm human. It's in my nature to mess up, but what I am learning is that it's how you mess up and that shows more of who you really are.

So with all that said. Who am i? I'm a Sinner, Daughter, Sister, Aunt, Friend, and most of all I AM DEEPLY LOVED BY GOD! That's the best part. Praise the Lord that I am His and he is mine!

With Everything By Joel Houston

Open our hearts,
To see the things
That make Your heart cry,
To be the church
The You would desire.
A Light to be seen.

Break down our pride,
And all the walls
We've built up inside,
Our earthly crowns
And all our desires,
We lay at Your feet.

So let hope rise,
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light,
And every eye will see
Jesus, our God,
Great and mighty to be praised.

God of all days,
Glorious in all of Your ways.
Your majesty, the wonder and grace,
In the light of Your name.

So let hope rise,
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light,
And every eye will see
Jesus, our God,
Great and mighty to be praised.

With everything,
With everything,
We will shout for your glory.

With everything,
With everything,
We will shout forth your praise.

Our hearts will cry
Be glorified,
Be lifted high,
Above all names.
For You our King,
With everything,
We will shout forth your praise.

With everything,
With everything,
We will shout forth your glory.

With everything,
With everything,
We will shout forth your praise.

Time for Change.

As most of you know, I am not attending Biola this year. Money, as with most students at Biola was a problem. I wasn't willing to take out so may loans because I wanted to be able to go where ever God lead me after I finally graduated and not have to worry about paying off these huge loans. What's funny about this situation is that I know God is working in me through this whole situation. I have pretty much had a calm heart about putting my dream of being a Biola graduate on hold with the uncertainty of returning. I'm not sure what God will do in the next couple of years but I can't wait to find out. I know that his plan is fair greater than any thing I can ever hope and imagine. I have learned that even though the situation may have many unknowns and lots of uncertainty, I know that God is always there and he is watching over me. He will never give me anything I can't handle because I can do all things through him who gives me strength.

The next part of my journey is continuing in the LA area. I am currently a resident of Long Beach, California where I am blessed to live with 3 amazing roommates. Our home is like a fairly tail on the beach. I couldn't have asked for anything better. I am also bless to work at Bethany Church with the junior highers there. I have learned tons and I have only been there for three months. I am so pumped to see what God has planned for our group this next year! Lastly I am going to school in Huntington Beach at Golden West Community college. I'm convinced that this is a blessing in disguise from God. I haven't seen anything amazing yet but I know that He will use in my some way. I only go to school one day a week for one class, (the rest I'm taking online) but I know that God is going to use me even in that small period of time to make an impact on this campus.

This summer, actually this whole last year has been a hard year for me. God had tugged and pulled at my heart. I have been broken over and over again and when I think I'm ready for the good stuff he breaks me again. I'm not writing this to sound sad but to just show that even though I have been broken I can still say that God is good through it all and he is taking care of me.

Lastly I would like to put out some prayer requests as the school year is starting.

1. Pray for the junior highers and staff in the Herd at Bethany(the church I work at) This year we are starting strong and I'm so excited for what's to come. For me please pray for guidance as I am leading the 6th grade girls and also overseeing all the females that are a part of the Herd. Pray that our group becomes a united family in Christ. That we are able to love each other and love God.

2. Pray that I stay focused and on top of my school work. This is the first time that I am taking online classes and it is really going to be interesting.

3. Pray also that I find another job. I need to find a way to get more money so that I can save for school and my poor car, Gina is on her last days so I will need to find a new one in the next year or so. She is for sure struggling.

So everybody. This is my life right now. Thanks for your continued prayers. They mean the world to me. I leave with this...Always remember at the end of the day GOD IS GOOD!